Heading Out...

I am leaving town Thursday. We are all headed to New Jersey for 10 days. My mother and father-in-law are celebrating their 25th Anniversar and renewing their vows, with a big party to follow. I think it will be a great deal of fun, but I HATE being away from home for longer than a week at most, unless that time is spent on a cruise ship. lol I get HORRIBLY home sick. Why this is, I don't know. I also don't do well when I'm stuck in a living situation with anyone for an extended period of time. I do well for a few days, then my nerves start wearing thin as I DESPERATELY need my privacy. Ask my husband and kids; when I don't get enough alone time I am the bitch from HELL. I have a hard time reading people socially as it is, and I tend to see tension that either isn't there or nobody else has ever noticed, and then I'm snippy and hard to get along with. Emily doesn't help. When I have her away from home I'm on edge because she's on edge. Even the slightest change in her routine can set her off and then I'm up to my ears in freaked out Asperger's kid. It's enough to drive anyone to consider entering the witness protection program, because not only is she almost impossible to comfort and control, she humiliates the heck out of me. I absolutely adore her, but I so can't handle being around her a good majority of the time. Makes me feel bad because Jessica and I get along great, but with Emily it's just one battle after another and there's little about her personality I can find likable, so it can make being a loving, fun mom really, REALLY hard. It's only a matter of time before my nerves show. *sigh* I just wanna get this over with and get back home, away from society.