....obsession....

Yeah, so I started reading the "Twilight" series. I had watched the movie, which is ok, but not great, but still interesting enough to have peaked my curiosity as to why these books are so popular. I thought it was just a teeny-bopper thing. So...I borrowed Jessica's books and delved into them with a light interest. That light interest immediately turned into an absolutely desperate need to KEEP READING! I read all 4 books in 5 days, little sleep and less food. Exhausting, but exhilerating. I am completely hooked now. *sigh* I have come to a conclusion.

Edward Cullen is the perfect man. That's it. Noone else will ever be good enough. I have to keep reading and daydreaming or life will NEVER be right again. I HATE it when I develop these unhealthy obsessions with fictional charectors. WHY?!?!? ARGH!!!!!

I gotta say... I knew the romance was dead in my life and had been for years, but my easily acceptance of mental escapism involving non-existent charectors just shows me that my relationship is in worse shape than I thought it was... Don't know what to do about that. It's been that way for years now.... Love still there, but just existing. Day to day, hour to hour, just...really lonely while not being alone. It's a weird feeling. At least there's someone there. I should be counting my blessings, but now a series of books has reminded me that I'm a lady, and I like to be treated like one.

*sigh*